I was in my mid-20s when I decided to follow a different path of human consciousness. It's not an ordinary life where freedom is absolute, but it's a life full of challenges and sacrifices. At first, it was not easy until I discovered my capabilities and unique qualities that are beyond the limits.
I struggled, endured the pain, and persevered through the uncertainties that came my way. During those times, I pondered the meaning of my existence and my role in service to humanity and the world.
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© Del Cusay
I am blessed with being born into a loving and supportive family. My parents raised us well and were able to send us to a good school to get the proper education that eventually gave us a comfortable life. My parents valued their children's education more than what they have accomplished. For them, education is an opportunity to succeed in life; although it may not be a guarantee, they still push us to get the education we want.
I graduated with a bachelor's degree in nursing and became a registered nurse. Back then, my family fully supported me for what I would become -- to live my life as a nurse. I would have become a bedside nurse abroad and lived more comfortably like other Filipino nurses enjoying the greener pasture. But those were just a missed opportunity and a fantasy in my vivid imagination. I did not become a nurse, and I remain in my country. It was a failure since the goal was not met, and it diverted my attention to other things that could satisfy my senses and provoke my creative imagination. I started to think and ask questions about the future. What do I want? What will I become? I needed a rescue out of the blue. Clueless about the future, I couldn't think but act like a happy-go-lucky; no destination ... nothing to see. It was dark, and I needed a guiding light.
The mid-20s is when I started to rewire my inner dialogue. Connecting the missing link helped me to regain my life for the greater opportunity. That was the time I entered an ashram. A school of initiation for higher consciousness. I developed some intelligence not attained by ordinary people who were not devoted to the spiritual journey. In the ashram, I learned to become a trainer and a public speaker. I decided to improve my intrapersonal and interpersonal skills, which led to a magical journey -- I couldn't believe the things that I could do. I envision being the best version of myself, upgrading my skills, and learning to decipher reality from obsolete beliefs. The learning was truly indispensable, and it made me who I am today- renewed and transformed.
To evolve in consciousness is to change self-limiting beliefs and habits that don't give meaning to higher existence -- universal service through spirituality. I meditated, chanted, and used a special mantra to achieve a sense of contentment and bliss. It changed my personality, and I reached a certain level of maturity through service. Then, I learned to appreciate the tagline "Live Your Greatest Life." Living a good life was just enough, but living one's life to the fullest was more meaningful and substantial- a spiritual bliss. Then, going beyond esoteric practice is "Serving Humanity and The World." It was the ultimate realization and fulfillment of my goals. I discovered to unleash my hidden potential and increase my self-worth. I became firm with my philosophies and elevated my personality to connect with stronger souls. If I didn't, then I wouldn't survive from the start. My inner compass would have directed me towards the path.
I traveled and lived in India for over a year and contacted different groups. I became one with the people. I dressed up and started to sound like them, too. I met various groups, from elite families and well-known personalities down to the grassroots level of society. The experience gave me serenity and a sense of purpose. I gained wisdom from Eastern philosophies with an integration of Western practicality, contributing to my confidence in exoteric teachings. In India, I taught different subjects that are primarily of spiritual origin. It was very fulfilling and memorable. My greatest achievement would have been the construction of the "Third Eye," which is spiritually guided. It was then I felt the Divine guidance that intervened in my being.
Feeling empowered, I embarked on a journey of service to humanity, doing extraordinary things. My path may not have been conventional, but the enlightenment I gained provided a profound perspective on the kind of life one should lead. Service to humanity, I realized, is the accurate measure of our existence. It's about improving lives and helping people discover a brighter meaning for their 'dharma' or soul purpose. This realization filled me with a deep sense of purpose and fulfillment, inspiring me to continue.
It was in India that I became a master of my own thinking. I challenge myself based on my choices and persuade others that what they believe is not aligned with the universal truth revealed in the ashram.
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How could I thrive after years of service when I started to bring back my old self? I strive to become better, yet couldn't see the light. I challenged myself even more, and then I realized that service to humanity is everywhere, in the community where we live or in a place where lives have brought us. Wherever we go is the place to leave a legacy. Maybe unknown to many, but popular to those whom we have touched lives. Our own 'dharma' is the legacy that is inherent to us. We may be wrong with our choices sometimes, but we can always choose to regain ourselves, become wiser, and live a better life. We have been ridiculed, but our principles could help us to hit our target. Sometimes we no longer tune in to lower vibrations, yet we strive to live an extraordinary life like the old days -- deeper soul connection.
As everything around me continues to change, I find myself still evolving, still uncertain about the future. But with the integration of Divine energies and the continuous development of my being, I am filled with a sense of purpose and eagerness for personal growth. I am certain that with this evolution, nothing can be greater than our renewed selves. We continue to develop, keeping the spark alive to illuminate others and inspire them on their own journeys of self-discovery.
Our evolution is a lifelong journey, and there will come a time when we need to look back and assess our old selves. In those moments of self-reflection, we can confidently say, 'I did my best, and now the path I am on is the path towards the right consciousness. It's not about belonging to a select group, but about embracing a universal consciousness that everyone deserves.' This realization should inspire us to continue our journey of self-discovery and growth, always striving to be the best version of ourselves.
© Del Cusay